Butterfly's In My Tummy

Well, the day I have thought about almost constantly is finally almost here! Tomorrow I will go pick up my husband from the airport. It's been exactly a month since I dropped him off and it seems like so much has happened. I can't believe it's only been a month.

I'm so excited to pick him up and to see him again. It strangely feels like the night before our wedding day again. I'm so nervous and excited to see him. I have nothing to be anxious about, but man do I have butterfly's in my tummy. I'm so ready for 4:59 pm to be here! It feels like such a dream. I feel like I felt right before I got to go see him on our wedding day in my dress. So anxious and so excited and so ready to be calmed by his presence and enjoy the beauty of marriage together again.

This month has made me reflect a lot on myself as a wife, and as a woman of God. It has been growing and so sanctifying. It has been a time of discipline from the Lord as well as a lesson in endurance and faith, and for that I'm grateful. Even though it hurt worse than I could have imagined, I would not have traded it. Sure I wish he never had to leave, but God grew me, and for that I must praise him. He truly did sustain me, even on those days when it felt like the tears would never stop flowing, and there were a lot of those, he truly did help me.

This past week has felt like cake compared to the other 3 and a half weeks. Probably since I was at home with my family. Sure I could have spent the entire month here, but I think making myself stay in Statesboro was necessary. One for support, but two it showed me a glimpse into the possible future of being an army wife. Community was such a huge help, and while I know being home would have been easier, I don't think I would have grown nearly as much if I had stayed home. Community has been something I've struggled with this past year, so it felt good to feel and understand the true meaning of it this summer.

I learned so much more during this summer, most of which I blogged about. I'm so sinful, and so in need of Jesus, and that was shown throughout the summer. My prayer as I get ready for my husband to come back is for us both to continue to grow in our love, trust, and faith in the Lord. I pray we continue to seek him first, and continue to grow in our marriage.

Before Trey left, and even while he was gone, people kept saying "distance makes the heart grow fonder." And while I do believe that to be true, I feel like my heart grew fonder of Jesus and his sufficiency in my life, and in turn that grew my love for my husband. I'm thankful for that, and thankful to get to love Trey even more and better now that he is about to return.

I don't know when he will leave again, and I don't really want to think about it yet, and for now I'm choosing not to. My mind is here in the present, anxiously and excitedly waiting for tomorrow. I'm ready to see him, hug him, and be held by him, and I can't wait for the rest of our lives together.

We did it. All Glory to God, We Did It!