Week 2 Blues

We are in week number two of having students back on campus. I should explain what this means for me. I work for a campus ministry called CRU. My main ministry focus is Greek Girls. I love my job, don't get me wrong, but right now I just feel tired, weak, and very spiritually attacked.

While the students have been back for two weeks now, we started our planning 3 weeks ago. Last week was full of Back to School excitement, tabling, and meeting lots of new faces. I love the beginning of school years, but this year is different. I am not a student anymore. My mind is fully on ministry, and I love it, but also I am exhausted. I haven't had a day off since before school started. And I just really feel it right now.

Something that I've never felt before, Satan is working hard to put lies and just exhaustion and I fully believe it is because I am doing so much ministry and spending so much time with God. And I hate it. All I want is Satan off my back.

I just feel like I'm in a daze and lost in thoughts that are not life giving and just having this out of body experience. I think all I need is some good time in the word. To fight with the full armor of God.

I just want to be real with everyone, but I feel stuck and exhausted and just away from everything. So prayers are needed if you're reading this.

I know God's word is what will get me back, and rest in him alone. I need to remind myself of who I am in Christ, to rebuke Satan, and to know and trust that God is protecting me and Christ is sufficient. I am okay. I am God's child. My thoughts don't define me. I am who God says I am.